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I'm telling you im a fakeeeee

2005-11-08T00:43:26Z

Today was..interesting. Heh. Idk So many things happened that i was just not expecting. Idk Im wickedly confused on a certain situation and i just have absolutely no idea what to do. i mean for the past idk how many days now i've been talking about nothing but steve. I get all happy when he says 5 words to me and now this is happening. I mean i feel so bad, because i still really like steve. But when you think about it..What chance do i really have with him. I mean i could say no and then just waste all my time trying to get to steve to notice me and for what. What would be the point. And then i'd regret saying no. And feel like a retard. Of course, i dont think this option is actually the right one if im looking for something...serious. I mean, i am 15 so why should i be looking for anything serious anyway. Just have fun. Which i guess this option is. But i dont want to be signing myself up for a break up. Does that make sense? Idk it feels so werid now that i was just complaining in my last entry about how guys dont like me and i feel completely ugly and this happens. Ugh. Idk im trying not to get too happy because then i'll ruin it. Yeah idk if i'll be making the best choice if..im forced to pick an answer. Yeah im going into detail. Whatever. He was suppose to call and he hasnt. And im just so bored so like..I have nothing else to do but wait. Blah i feel wickedly tired too. But cant go to sleep. And i cant go online which suckkks. Because everytime i do go online someone calls. Lol. Yeah why cant i get that thing now. And not have to wait until my birthdayyy. Yeah my mind is just not..here. Woo. Let it bleeeed. Take red for what its worrrth. Borreedom. Maybe i'll just keep talking. Take up some time. No idea what to ramble about. Boyss boysss boyyys dont i talkk about anything else? Im such a looooser. Its really warm in here. It's almost 7..should i really be waiting?. Maybe i should take a bath. No. Hm. Eyes really hurt. Idk if i had english homework...hope not. I have to do my history still. Yeah i guess i should do that. Wooo.

Goodbye to you..

2005-11-06T23:05:23Z

Yeah. My mom is on the phone again. I hate it. She always complains that im on the phone for forever but shes on longer than i am. I mean the only time im ever on the phone is if angela calls or i need to ask ravin something. Idk. Its pointless. Today was soo..idk. I've been up since 5. I couldnt sleep too much on my mind. Get to that later. Watched the rest of south park season 4 that i had started last night. Then watcehd some Dawsons creek. Left at like 830 and got some breakfast. Mother felt the need to do a weeks worth of grocery shopping. Got home and undid all that. She made me do laundry and clean my room. Then i made my cake. That i realized i couldnt eat after i was halfway done because it was made out of dark chocolate. Nice one Britney. Left at like 1230 or maybe earlier to go somewhere with mom and paula. We ended up going to the parky thing. Walked for like an hour and a half. That was the time of my life. Went to McDonalds for like the first time in 12 years. Then came home and here i am. Showered. Did my math homework. Made dinner. And yeah. I just realized after typing all this out that i ate 3 meals today. Surprising.Oh yay. Mother is off the phone and now i get to conect to the little internet and stare at a bunch of screen names of people that dont talk to me. Poiiintlesss. Blah not like anyone is on anyway. Be lah. Therapy this week. Yippie. It used to help. Probably before my mom started getting into the whole thing of how its costing her too much money. Now i just feel like my problems arent really that bad when you have to repeat them out loud to someone. I sound so fucking stupid. Going on about how i feel like my mom hates me and how we have a mutual feeling on that. Or how i constantly get jealous of all of my friends and the only reason i ever want a boyfriend is so i actually feel like someone cares about me. Oh yeah. I dont sound like a total retard. Whats more stupid is that i put a link to my journal right in my info. So anyone out of boredom could be reading this. Coolness all the way. Idk maybe i should stop it. I mean its not the easiest thing to go there once a week or two or whatever and like just start naming every problem that goes on in my pathetic little life and have her give me her opinion on it her have her just stare at me like shes thinking about whats she wants at Dunkin Donuts when this stupid little 15 year old with annoying little problems leaves. Well its not her fault. Why should she care about me. Well we care paying her to care. But i guess she doesnt really have to. Would be nice. But not likely. Maybe i should just go back to being all emo and crying all the time. I complain enough. At least i felt somewhat comfortable with myself. I wasnt happy obviously. But i knew that i was Britney. Stupid little girl that wore too much black, and too much eyeliner, and listened to gay music, and goes around like shes ready to chop everyones head off that goes near her. It would be better than this little act that im putting on where i pretend to be happy. Its annoying to keep hearing my mother tell me that i choose how my day will turn out. If i go in with a bad attitude then i will have a bad day. Well you know what mom. My life sucks no matter if i look like im ready to punch someone or i hug them on sight and give them a flower. Im tired of hearing. 'Dont let people affect your emotions.' 'People shouldnt control your emotions.' 'You can control what happens in your life' Well fuck that. My life has sucked for the past 4 years. And before that i was kidd and the wrost thing that could of happened was that i forgot to turn in my money for lunch on monday. I hate freaking out over the dumbest things. But dr. Mom would say, 'You can control those things Britney'. Well obviously i missed that subject in school. How to fucking control what bothers you. Not to mention my self confidence is barely existent . i walk into school feeling like im the ugliest thing that could have step foot there. And the people i go to school with dont make me feel any better. Im surrounded by sluts and immature little boys. So why should i care what they think. Well its not like i have anyone else to think about. Im just surrounded by those poor excuses for human beings and my mother. And thats all i'll be surrounded by for the next year and like 9 months. And then i can leeeeeaveee. Finally. 'But no dont run away from your problems britney. Because they'll just follow you there' Yeah like a fucking puppy. Im very frustrated. Not like you couldnt tell. I hate being like this. I hate feeling like i have no friends. Even though i know i do. But when i need them whos there. When im freaking out like a complete psycho. Whos there? My fucking rabbit?. My mother who i wouldnt tell the time. I mean what good is a friend if when im going psycho and need to talk to them they're not there. And that is why i want a boyfriend. Because i have the really random moments, where i just freak out completely. And theres like this little part of me that thinks oh maybe if i have some stupid boy that acts half his age pretend to be my boyfriend and care about maybe i wont get like this. But of course what good are boys. They might be nice for the first few months. But they'll just break up with you or cheat on you or something. And then theres those lucky people who have those boyfriends that they dont seem to fight with. Or that seem to do everything right. And they buy each other little gifts and write little notes. And i get so freaking jealous. I hate being jealous. Sometimes i can control it and theres other times where i just want to throw somebody into a wall. I hate hearing how that girl is hott or whatever and then i just stand there like wow am i that freaking disgusting that not even some stupid excuse for a guy could think im somewhat good looking. But of course not. Why would anyone think im pretty. Im Britney. Almost forgot. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGH. I 150% hate being like this. But unlike everyone keeps telling me. I CANT FUCKING CONTROL IT. And i know that at this time tomorrow when im straightening my annoying hair i wont feel like this anymore. Tragic. Spend like 25 minutes typing out a journal entry that i wont even apply to me in 24 hours. Blah. Im sure i have an entry like this like a few weeks ago. Idk. Im sorry to whoever reads this. Im sorry for being a loser. Who has no confidence and thinks they;re ugly. And im sorry if your my friend. Im really sorry you have to deal with me.

Well you'll never find it. If you looking for it.

2005-11-05T20:31:02Z

Yeah well i wasted idk how many hours fixing my myspace. And now its all pretty. Yeah. My eyes fucking kill. I was suppose to go out last night but no of course not. Couldnt. This is like the first weekend in forever that i havent done soemthing. Idk. I watched Dawsons Creek for like 3 hours this morning and after im done with this pointless thing that no one reads i will be resuming that. I think my mom is coming home early. Yippie. Not really. I wanna go the the movies.Theres so many movies i want to see but no. I have no money and my mom wont bring me anyway. Blah. 48 days. If you dont know to what then you're not my friend. Um. I think its 48. It'd be sad if it wasnt. Yeah. I quite hungry. Boy are stupid. I have math homework i should be doing but yeah im not going to. This is pointless. Adios.
Queso Queso.

Shhyyeaaah

2005-11-01T22:01:16Z

I just reread a bunch of my journal entries and i've been talkking about steve for like over a month.

Yeah im obsessssed

Woot

2005-11-01T20:53:21Z

Today was awesome.
Had to turn in my bread for spanish.
It was hard as a rock.
Got candy in chem.
Passed my math test.
Then
Stayed after with Jess.
Walked to Dunkin Donuts with her.
Got foood.
And talked for awhile.
And we realized we had a lot in common.
...about a certain situation.
It was so weird.
So i had an aweeesome day.
And i get to see steve tomorrow.
And i showed jess what he looks like and she said he was cute.
So yeah at least people finally dont think people i like are ugglly.
Wooo.

sigh

2005-10-31T22:26:48Z

I had a shockingly awesome day. I had idk sort of a bad morning. But that changed quickly. I dont know. I becoming more obsessed with steve everyday. And thats BAD.I cant get like this about a guy again. idk. I probably have no shot in the world. I told ravin i was gonna ask him out today. Obvioulsy i did not go through with it. It would kinda make me feel better because like if he says no which is like 98% likely then i wont need to like him anymore. But i could never do that. I have no confidence in myself. I feel like telling courtney or something. And maybe she'll blab it and then he'll find out and then idk. Probably get scared and run away and ask the teacher to get his seat changed. Yeah. He probably has a fucking girlfriend. Blah. I almost asked for his s/n but i chickened out. Idddk. Bowling on friday. Posssiblyyy. That should be interesting considering the people we're trying to get to go. I wish steve would go. That would be hott. Im trying to find someone hes friends with. I really am obsessed. Thats bad. I need to stop. I am going to be like wickedly depressed over this kid sooner or later. Oh wel i guess i ask for it. I should probably get less obsessed. Or i should work on it atleast. But hess so hott. And i havent had a boyfriend in forever. Blaaah. That'd be hott to start going out with someone on halloween. I think i'll try to tell Courtney in gym or something. Maybe write steves name all over my hand like i do everyday. Yeah that wont be obvious. Im such a fucking loser.

Im a jew. A fucking Jew.

2005-10-28T23:38:20Z

I dont know. I hate how my mother never listens to me when i talk. I hate how she always interupts me. I hate it when i try to explain it to her she just interupts me again and starts yelling at me. I hate being jealous of all of my friends. I hate how guys think all my friends are pretty. I hate it how all my friends have boyfriends. I hate myself for not being pretty. I hate myself for not being able to make my mom happy. I hate myself for not being pretty enough for steve to like me. I hate myself for not getting over people. i hate everything. Blah i hope everyone dies.

okay

2005-10-25T20:29:33Z

i just wrote like a whole entry and idk what happened to it..okay

So basically i went on about steve and how im getting to la la about this kidd and pretty soon hes gonna like get a girlfriend and my little world as we know it will be over.
Um therapy tomorrow.
Things are somewhat going okay.
Mark tried to eat my baby.
We had that thing today for varsity sports.
Fags.
Im going to go watch Kingdom of Heaven because orlando bloom is in it and hes hott.
Jessica is back.

We gave up we made up its not like you cared...

2005-10-23T16:17:40Z

Well. Its been a weird couple days. We went to the football game on friday. That was..idk alright. Hung out with ravin courtney jess amanada and a few other people. Some interesting things happened. Nothing to do with me. But whatever. I took some pics. Yeah how interesting. Yesterday ravin and her familia picked me up at 1230 ish. We went around clifton park for awhile trying to find costumes for the halloween party. Didnt really work out too well. We saw some dude singing at the mall. Went back to ravins. Ate lunch. Got ready for the party. Left at like quarter after 4. Had to go to ravins sisters game at the highschool. Hung out with josh for like an hour. Left went to get ice cream. Got dropped off at the party a little before 7. Chilled there stuff happned that i can repeat. It kinda sucked. Got picked up at 11. Here i am. Idk. I was alerted at the football game that a certain someone like another someone and then i learned that to be true at the party last night. I guess i act like it doesnt bother me. But it does. Not sure why. But it just makes me feel like..if your like somewhat my friend then you wont do that. But what right do i have to say that because they can say that too. Its not like im the only one. Idk. We played games at the party. We played twister for all of 3 minutes. Then truth or dare. Then spin the bottle. There was alot of making out and it was just insane. I had a little bit of fun. But i guess ravin wasnt having the greatest of time. So i tried to make sure she was okay. Idk it was a big mess. Im not really aloud to repeat stuff that happned. So i wont. Idk. Right now im all blah. I like steve . I really like him. And the more i get all totally liking him then the easier it is for me to get sad. I just have to like tell myself that he doesnt like me, whether its true or not. Just some how make myself believe it and then if he doesnt like me it wont bother me that much and if he did then everything would be okay. But things dont work like that. I wish i was pretty. Theres times when i think i am. But them all you hear about it how all these guys think all these other girls are hott. And im just there. Idk why i get like this. The only reason they like them is probably cuz of the way they dress and they;re all fucking whores. Idk I think im going to go back to when i wore hoodys and baggy pants all the time. I think i was happy then. idk im so lost. I dont know how to make myself happy anymore. Nothing just ever works out right. i have so much homework to do and i cant even think staight. I feel so lonely. Everybody has somebody. Whether it be their best friend their boyfriend/gf brother sister whatever. I dont have a boyfriend. My best friend lives like and hour away and im alone in this tiny little house all the time. And i just sucks. I hate my mom i like when shes not here anyway. I just fucking hate life.

Busy busy.

2005-10-21T21:57:04Z

Its 548. I have like 10 minutes to write this and i dont think im gonnna be able to but i'll try. Schools been okay. Its getting better. I had a couple really bad days. But its getting better. I have a totally crazy weekend. In like 30 minutes i'll be leaving to go get ravin and we're going to go to the football game against amsterdammm. Should be interesting. Old town against new town. Then im goin with ravin tomorrow to her sisters game? Possibly. Then im probably going to chill with her and we have to go buy some costume material for megan;s party. The get ready for that. And that starts at 730. So thats wear i'll be tomorrow night. Ravin wants to find some random guy to make out with. She wants me to find one to but idk lol. That should be cool. Im going as ravin. So yes i'll be the biggest whore there. Im bringing my camera tonight and tomorrow so i will have some good pictures. I heard rumors we're playing spin the bottle and like truth and dare and some other games. Lol. Yeah More details on that later. Then Sunday is all up in the air. Me and ravin were suppose to go to the mall all day and then hang out later that night but idk its all woo. So even if we dont do anything that will give me time to do allll my homework. And i have some gay history project to due. Funess. I cant figure out what to wear. Theres only like 8 months of school left. Hottness. 2 months and like two days until my biiiiiirthday. IDK im not that excited. But whatever. Im really ugly today. But i did have a rather good day at school. Steve gave me like 3 sheets of paper today in history and i was sniffing them in study hall. Haha. Me and my little study hall crew have came to realize that i am more obsessed with him then any other guy. With my luck i'll find out he has a girlfriend or will get one this weekend or something and i'll go into a deep state of depression.

And the kids are going crazy now.

2005-10-11T21:15:33Z

I tend to you have these long gaps where i dont write anything. I guess i just havent had the time. Lets see its October 11th? That means it's ryan's birthday tomorrow. Shocking how i still remember things like that. Last time i wrote in here i was at paulas. Well what has happened since then.. I resumed to working only 1 day a week. So thats made my life easier. Angela is 16 and is driving. I hate her for it. I get her south park season 5 cuz im an awesome friend like that. I missed her birthday party because i had to work. I guess im doing okay in school. I got a 100 on my lab report. Im so cool. I brought my math grade up. So im doin okay. I read 4 books this past week. Im getting a new one tomorrow. I started reading this book called freaky green eyes. Which i read alot of it awhile ago but i dont really remember it. So i started it again. i read like four pages and then i remembered about this other book i started. And the whole thing was about these 3 guys and them turning gay so i read that yesterday. It was pretty interesting so im gonna get the sequel to that tomorrow and probably read that by friday and finish this freaky book over the weekend. If i have time that is. I have to take the PSAT's on saturday morning then go to work right after that. And work all day sunday too. So who knows. I should probably read that booklet think they gave me or the psats. Or nimsqwat. as ravin calls it. Speaking of her, im been hanging out with her alot lately. Well she lives right down the road so why not. Last night she called me at like..6? and asked me if i was hungry. Lol. So her mom invited over for dinner. And i hung out there until 8 something. That was cool. Me and her went to the dance last friday. Her mom took us. That was so much fun. I surprised myself. I hung out with jess alot. Me and her are becoming pretty good friends. Jackie if goin out with levi. Thats cool. I know she really liked him. I told her jeans equal forever love. lol. Im trying not to let my little mind think that much. Like..the whole. day dreaming thing. Because every time i do i get my little hopes up and then nothing happens that great so whatever. Im trying not to think about mr steve. Because im becoming completely obbbbsesssseddd with him. Which is completely saddd and im acting like a 6th grader. But whateverrrr. The hot freshmore wrote his number on ravins arm. She suppose to call him today so i'll be waiting for her phone call to hear about that. He was talking about her at lunch today. i got to hold his hoody too. Hah. Yeah i cant wait for lunch tomorrow. SHould be interesting. Um. Ms. A. is annoying me a ravin. probably more me because ravin is too nice to get mad. I have history tomorrow. Gah. Im so bad. I have to write a lab report and do my history and read some stupid chapter in english. Blerrrrgh. Dickhole is being..well just that but whatever. I guess im done with this long entry for now.

idk.

2005-09-30T23:22:47Z

I never update anymore. Right now im at P and t's house. Yeah is so exciting. Im like in love in this kid in my history class but i know i have no chance. School has been pretty fuckin gay so far. I didnt really get any of the classes i wanted. which blows majorly. My mother have been fighting more than usual. I have like 4 friends. If that. Angela's birthday is on wed. She'll be 16. Lucky. I still have to get her present. Yikes. Its been 6 months. I try not to think about it. It really doesnt bother me. Somedays but not all. Im used to going only 5. But..Idk. Life is pretty fucking gay man. Theres so many problems going on with everyone.I have history monday. Im acting like a 5th grader. Sigh. I hate guys sometimes. My cell phone has 35 cents on it. So no one can really call. Even thou 3 people have today already and i cant answer. And someone left me a message..that i cant check. Exciting no? My eyes hurt. Im almost done with my book. I didnt realize it was about gay people but i guess when you look at the cover you can pretty much tell. Its like that thing with hard love. About gay people. Idk. Im really cold. Theres only 1 tv in this house. And they cook too much food. I get the house to myself tomorrow. Sexyness. I lost one of my rings. I think i'll cry. My foots asleep and im bored. No one is on. Well a couple people are. idk i really never talk to anyone on the computer anymore. I hardly ever IM anyone. I dont know why but i hate doing it. Oh well. If you really want to talk to me you'll do it yourself. Im thinking about someone who i havent talked to in awhile. Its really weird we talked for like one day for like hours and thats it. Idk i see them all the time in school. Maybe they hate me? Idk wouldnt be something out of the ordinary. Its not like im dying to be friends with this person. I dont even know that much about them. Whatever. People are gay. This computer sucks because i dont have my music on it. It took like 2 seconds to download aim. Im not used to computers that work i guess at a normal pace. Mine is a loser and goes below average. Idk what i just said. I ramble and i make no sense. Great people are here. Old people to be exact. Not people i know. I wonder if i'll have to talk to them. old people usually smell. Blah. I wish i hate some raspberries.

socks.

2005-09-15T22:28:11Z

List 20 people you know IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER.

1. Angela
2. Ravin
3. Jessica
4. Danielle
5. Jackie
6. Lauren
7. Josh
8. Tim
9. Aubree
10. Kelly
11. Caitlyn
12. Courtney
13. Steve
14. Jess
15. Amanda
16. Alison
17. Kelsey
18. Luke
19. Nick
20. Andrew

How did you meet 13?
Sept of 2003. 9th grade. Cuz his little locker was a few down from mine.

What would you do if you never met 5?
I wouldnt have anyone to keep me occupied at work or make butter cakes with.

Have you ever liked 3?
Just a friend.

What do you honestly think of 10?
Kelly is awesome. Because she makes me josh groban cds

Would or did 19 and 8 go out?
Hahaha Would tim and Nick go out.Haha. There brothers.

If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know?
That i wouldnt know what i do because shes my best friend. :).

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?
I dont think ravin is a queeer.

Describe 7 in 3 words:
Silly. Interesting. Cookie-monster.

Do you think 12 is hot?
I dont swing that way.

Would 1 and 17 ever go out?
Angela wouldnt go out with a girl

What do you think when you see 8?
I think hes hottttt. Hah no lol.

Tell me something humiliating about 11.
Her name is cotton candy.

Do you know any of 6's family members?
I saw her mom before because they live like 2ft away.

What's 20's favorite color?
No idea.

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
Hah. Idk. i dont look at girls like that

What would you do if 15 just professed their undying love for you?
I'd be quite scared. I dont think amanda would do that thou.

What language does 19 speak?
He doesnt talk.

Who is 8 going out with?
Nobodddy.

Does 2 have any siblings?
yeahh

Would you ever date 7?
No i wouldnt day that. Sorry.

Is 18 single?
Maybe?

What is 10's fantasy?
To meet josh groban <33

What school does 16 go to?
Burnt Hills

Where does 9 live?
Uahahaf umm not surree.

Would you make out with 13?
Haha sure whyy not. I already did.

How did you meet 4?
Studdyy hall 9th grade.

What grade is 17 in?
11th

When was the last time you talked to 12?
Today

What is 3's favorite band?
I dont know lol.

Does 16 have a weird talent?
Not that i know of.

..Will he graduate?

2005-09-11T16:08:15Z

Please excuse the subject. I didnt know what to write and i just heard that on the tv so its now the subject. So im doing better i guess. I had a little freak out on friday. I have those often. But im better now. I have to go into work at 2 today. An hour and a half before i have yo leave yippie. I did all of my homework thats due tomorrow. Im so proud of myself. I still have to do my history homework. I love that class. Um. I guess school isnt that bad. Its only the first week so we shall see. I hope it wont be as bad as last year. But we shall see. I have to go talk to my guidance counsler tomrrow. Um. I talked to peg and i guess i worked out all my problems at work. So im not quiting. I need the money. Badly. Hopefully i'll be able to get my car in the spring. My eyes really hurt. My mommy took me out to breakfast this morning. Me and her have been getting along good for the past couple of days. No fights. Im not going to call my father. I changed my mind. I dont want his money. If hes nice he send me more money on my birthday. But i'll be lucky if i get 100$ out of him. Anyway new topic. Ohh im sleepy. Eh. IDK. what to say. Maybe i'll do a survey :)

...

2005-09-10T02:25:03Z

IDK. I had a somewhat okay day at school. But then my day got worse once i got to work and there was just so many problems. And i had another one of my freakouts. Idk. And i came home and got my clothes so that cheered me up. Idk now i feel quite hated. I mean i didnt even do anything to these people. I moved on. Got on with my life. And only the second day of school and im being acused of all this stuff i didnt do/say. And im sure this wouldnt bother me on a normal day but me and my mom keep fighting. And im stressing out and im like getting back into my depressed mode. And i promised myself i wouldnt be like that anymore. i wouldnt let people do this to me. But its been two fucking days and its already happening. I mean i worked so hard to be happy. 5 months people. Thats how long it took. And 2 days into school and im already freaking out. This shit already happened back in like april/may whatever. And im tired of it. i didnt do anything. I dont go around saying things people think i do. People just assume im this awful person and im not. Whats the point of trying. Why do people just hate me. Like what did i do. Just tell me. gaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Im really not that bad. Am i? I Blah i want to move. :(

Why can people do this to me.???
I think im going crazy.

Yes. No. I dont know.

2005-09-09T01:25:53Z

First day was today. Ewiee. School was okay. Im sure it couldve been worse. I talked to alot of people i didnt really plan on talking to and the ones i thought i might talk to didnt even say hi to me. So idk. I mean its so much different then it was june. Its really weird. Im trying to get a bunch of us to go the movies. It probably wont be to next week sometime because im working 3-c tomorrow and closing tomorrow and doing a all day thing on sunday. So idk. I might have to quit. Considering i had a freak out today. It wasnt that bad. But idk. No one is in any of my classes. Its quite sad. The bus is so crowded and took me forever to get there. I saw luke thou. That made me happy. :). Lovesss so confussing ....i have to expresssss how i feeeeel. One thing i knows true. I'll neverrrr replaceee youu. Teah thats britneys singing right there. Oh godddddd. I think i like him again.Im over sean. Probably because i havent seen him in forever. But hes talking to me again. I talked to him online...sorta. And he talked to me today and i almosted hugged him. Idk why i like him. Ugh im sooooo stupid.

Well is it.

2005-09-07T21:24:58Z

Yesterday was probably one of the worst days ever. Ugh. Work. Almost quit. Idk it was really bad. Jackie tried to calm me down. So did her dad. It didnt really work. Matt knew there was something wrong but idk. I didnt really want to talk to him about it because i was in a really bad mood. Im better now. I guess. Talked to the woman about it today. And about tomorrow. I really dont want to go back. I mean really really dont want to. Ugh i cant believe school is tomorrow. Its really not sinking in. Im gonna be so bad tomorrow. I keep stressing out about everything. Work and my mom and now school i just cant handle this. These days are going by so quickly. It just sucks. My stomach feels so weird. Im like wicked nervous and idk why. Blah. I've worked so hard to be happy. And its really going to suck if when i walk into school tomorrow that it'll just disappear.

Love <33

2005-09-05T17:01:42Z

Love is just another word for pain
It's a broken record repeating the same
thing
When you want it it's not there
When you have it you don't
care
When i lose it in the end...

The heartbreak, the heartache is more than i wanted
We gave up, we made
up
It's not like you cared
Deception, Depression is all that i've
got
And but who said love was fair

And i've made up my mind
I'd be better off alone
Love is just a waste of
time

And all the lonely nights
And all the crushing scenes
And all the
pointless fights

Someone tell me what it means
Someone tell me why hearts break
Cuz
sometimes i think this thing called love is another word for pain

And i'm
giving up on happy endings
The one's that are only in movies
Where the guy
gets the girl and everybody's happy
I think that's the way it should be

The heartbreak, the heartache is more than i wanted
We gave up, we made
up
It's not like you cared
Deception, depression is all that i've
got
And but who said love was fair

And i've made up my mind
I'd be
better off alone
Love is just a waste of time

And all the lonely
nights
And all the crushing scenes
And all the pointless
fights

Someone tell me what it means
Someone tell me why hearts
break
Cuz sometimes i think this thing called love is another word for
pain

P-S-Y-C-H-O

2005-09-05T01:46:34Z

Yeah. So i just realized i have no money on my phone so no one can even call my phone. Not like anyone does..or knows the number. Yeah.. Im on the phone with angela. We're trying to figure out how to get her text messaging on her little phoney thing. I think jackie is coming over tomorrow. Maybe i'll see sean :) I didnt get to see him today. I made alot in tips today :). Yeah 4 days. Tear. I get to watch dawsons creek tomorrow. Sweetness. I got my new clothes XD. Im still waiting for the online ones. Josh Groban tshirt<33. Sexiness. Just like my elbows. My eyes really hurt so im gonna stop now. I love you jordan.

Love Sucks

2005-09-04T02:28:18Z

So its time for another one of my sappy little entries. I doubt anyone actually reads this except like the two people i know do. Oh well. Yeah so I've been working non stop. When i get my paycheck for next week i'll have 700 dollars. Woot. Umm. Sean has been coming into work alot. Omggggg is he hottt. Yeah we talked on thursday for awhile. Siggggh. im talking to fat boy again. Or craig. Whatever you prefer to call him. I cant believe school is starting on thursday ick. And i have to see them too. Ew just thinking about them makes me wanna puke...naaasty. Yeaaaah its 1025. I may have to cut this short later incase jboy calls. But who knows. Yeah. I had alot to say but i guess i dont. Oh well. Heres to being happy for 3 weeks on monday. And im not gonna let anyone fuck that up :).

Fanny pack..anyone?

2005-08-29T23:56:50Z

10 days left. Dum da dum. Fuse is on my tv right now. For like the first time in 3 months. I have no idea why its on. I have it up kinda loud right now. Just to piss the people off that live around me :). I have alot to say and im not sure what to start with. Well i guess we could go with that im never home anymore. Working almost everyday day and if im not working im doin something. Its not like i was a month ago. Im just soooo busy. And its getting really annoying. Like im never home and angela always happens to call when im not home and then when i get like 5 minutes free to call her shes like either with josh or not home or on the phone with him or something. I kinda want to go back to when i was bored all the time. I dont knnooow. Maybe not. I am making a hell of alot of money now that the college kids went back to school. I added up all my hours and by the time school starts i'll have 700$. :). So instead of me begging my dad for a car im just gonna have him send me money. And i'll buy my car here. My goal is to get it like april/may area. Idk it might work. This job is gonna end somewhere at the end of october. We're moving the first of novemember. Oh idk if i said that yet. IM MOOOOOOOVING. :). So yeah im gonna get another job possibly before my birthday. And then get a job where ever i want after that cuz i'll beeee 16 woot. :). Okay the world is now turning against me. I hate music I really do. I mean when people go out they usually have a song or whatever if they go out long enough and they're queer. So yeah Kevin and me had i caught fire. Which was my favorite song by the used which was at the time my favorite band. Somehow after me and kevin broke up and became friends again he got me to hate them. Now that we dont talk anymore i dont really hate the used..but i dont listen to them so idk. But yeah last night i was bored..going through the channels and what not. Happened to hit 66..fuse..and what was playing..yeah i caught fucking fire...minus the fucking. I wasnt like...waaaah i miss kevin and all the bullshit i just wanted to stab someone in the eye. Idk My favvvvvvorite song ruined by the fuckhead. I'll be okay. I'll be okay. Greenday is on now...summmmmerrr has comeeeee and passssed. Yeah. Okay. 5 months yesterday..woah. Thats awhile. Oh well. 10 days. *cries.* School can suck my dick.

So keep the butt in your head

2005-08-24T00:21:14Z

Yeah so I really havent been going online alot. Not quite sure why. I just think its stupid i guess. I have so much other things to do then sit here in front of a screen. Im not sure what has been taking up my time so im not here. Idk. Im not really watching that much tv either. Who knows. I went to go and visit jackie at work today. Ending up staying there for about 3 hours helping her. Then some little kid threw up and guess who had to clean it up..yay me. Heh. Idk i have tomorrow off. Then im closing thursday. Yeah what else is new. Then 11 or 1 to 5 on friday then sleeping over ravins...i think. Then spending thursday with her for her birthdaaay. Yeah. I probably should call her and see whats going on. School start in like 2 week. Ew. We have 24 cans of arizona iced tea sitting right next to me but i cant drink them. Gah. How gay. My eyes hurt. I wanna go see avril..woooo. Yeah. My foot is asleep. Dude i want wendys. Fuck ortho thing thursday. Gah so means i wont be home at ALL thursday or friday..or saturday. Wow im sooooo busy. Yeah okay. I just remembered i havent ordered my clothes yet..fuck.

keep you're butt in you're head

2005-08-16T22:16:39Z

So, my last entry was kinda on the weiird side. Idk i get in those moods where i just like write really weird entries that dont even sound like something i would say. But like i said im changing alot. I guess it was one of those entries where i just said how i felt about all those people and now i have no reason to ever really talk about them again. So im surprised with my good mood for the past two days. It feels great to be happy..it only took like 5 months. I'll have been single for 5 months on ravins birthday...weiiiirdness. I saw jessica on sunday. Idk if i said that already. Stopped in at the dunkin donuts where she works and said hello. I kinda want to go back to school for that reason of seeing her again. Shes like the one friend that i have spent the least amount of time with. Idk i have a feeling this year is going to be completely different. Well obviously. But like all my friends are in 10th grade. And im gonna be stuck with the seniors now. Which i guess isnt so bad because i used to be friends with alot of them when i was in 9th grade. But now most of them dont really talk to me so it should be interesting. Im wicked bored. Im hanging out with jackie on friday. Cant wait. Havent seen her in like a month. Its so weird because like we work at the same place and i hardly ever see her. I took her hours on thursday so im closing tomorrow, thursday, i was suppose to on friday but i cant since im hanging with jackie, and then im closing saturday and working day shift on sunday. Ravins birthday is next sunday. I bought her something while i was in washington DC. I bought her 3 things actually. She knows what two of them are because she was there when i bought them. But the last one i bought i know she'll love. School starts in like..23 days. Gaaaah thats so scary. Idk i want it to come but i dont. Of course sooner or later i'll be like..well school starts tomorrow. Blah. Doot doot. I gave up soda completely and chocolate. I know. But my doctor was right and i havent really had a headache awhile. So idk. We shall see. The red from my hair is staring to look orangey. Idk if i should go and get it redone before school. Where i have to go costs like soooooo much money. And im like spending all this money on clothes and idk what to do. I really want to put some blue in it. She said i couuld do like one streak of what ever color i wanted...maybe i'll do green. Yeah. :)

Yeah so like yesterday i went online and typed in colleges that majored in physical therapy and i got like 30 schools so i clicked on the ones that were somewhat near here..Not in like california or anything and asked them to mail me shit so i must have clicked on 20 colleges at least. So this should be fun hearing from all them..it took like 2 hours to fill all the shit out..dear god..okay yeah i spent like 3 hours redoing my myspace..what a way to waste the day..

cl0ckw0rkfusex @ 2005-08-15T14:59:00

2005-08-15T18:59:24Z

Britney has returned home.
Washington DC for a week.
So fun.

Its scary how much im changing in one month. My mom doesnt see it. I dont think anyone really does. But i do. And i guess thats all the matters.Idk i think im learning alot. I think its the therapy. I used to be so mad. I hated everyone and i was just depressed all the time. And now i dont even see what i could have possibly been depressed about. Or why i let people affect my emotions. So completley stupid. I just want to smack myself in the head. Two years ive wasted. And for what. Some many friends i have lost. And this isnt a new thing ive realized..ive felt like this before. I just finally dont regret it anymore. I dont think i regret anything. Honestly i dont see the point of regret anymore. Why spend time thinking about the past and wishing you coud re-do something or wishing just to relive moments. You cant really do anything about it. I used to just sit in my room and be all sad and ask why my life had to be so difficult. But like. Whats so bad about my life right now? Yeah i have some family problems..But those pass within a day. So other than that. I see no problem. I have friends. More than i thought i did. Its crazy. I dont want to sound like im suddenly miss popular but i have friends..that i didnt realize i had. Sure i cant talk to them all the time like i used to doing school but they're still my friends. I mean i have angela. Of course. Then i have Ravin. Then Jackie. And Jessica. I mean i hardly see any of them. But they're still my friends. Honestly i dont want like all these friends. Im fine with my 4 good friends. And yeah they're all girls but who cares. They're my friends. I've just been so pathetic these past two years. I started off complaining that i had no friends and that everyone hated me. But then i became friends with laurie and steve and then i stopped complaining...i think. Now look..am i really friends with either one of them. The two people that were nice to me when i was the 'new kid'. No. Yeah steve is like a whole other topic and he really doesnt want to be my friend anyway but look what happened to me and laurie. Yeah id say we're pretty good friends..when schools goin on but like nothing how it used to be. Then the whole mike thing came along and that basically sucked up all my time from december to august. Not that we went out that whole time but that was just my focus. And we'd break up and get back together and then hed go out with someone else and then id want to go back out with him and then i didnt and blah blah blah. Like hello. Idk i was so bad with relationships. Like once you break up once..its over thats how it should be. I know i may take that back one day. And then this year started. And me and laurie became friends again and then i met ravin. Became friends with jessica. Became really good friends with jackie. Then there was danielle. I mean just so many people that im not really that good of friends with anymore. Then the whole dan thing. The january. And i got sucked into the bubble called kevin. Didnt really talk to laurie that much after that. Me and ravin kinda talked more. I didnt really talk to angela that much either because i was always talking to kevin and he was my focus. And then we broke up 2 months later and i made it seem like we went out for 12 years or something and like the whole world was gonna end. And then from april to like the end of june..the only thing i had on my mind was going back out with kevin. Like who does that?? Yeah i thought the kid was my best friend for like a month but that died quickly. So hes an asshole and got a gf and didnt want to be my friend anymore. Yeah it bother me up until this month. But whatever cant do anything about it and its not like i really want to. So hes not a part of my life anymore. Big deal. Why think about it. It happened its over move on. And none of my ex's are in any way shape or form part of my life. And thats how it should be. I was so stupid when it comes to guys. But its not affecting my mood. My mood hasnt changed since i first started writing this. Usually when i write about them i get sad and wish i could back to when i was happy. But god britney. Boys dont want make you happy. I dont regret going out with mike or kevin or richie, and i dont regret breaking up with them either. Yeah it sucks that i lost some friends but i dont regeret because if they;re really my friends then sooner or later they'll come around and we'll be friends again. And someday when im not thinking about it i may just have another boyfriend. And someday i may find a guy that isnt an asshole. But that may be many many days from now because boys dont grow up until they;re out of college. So now im just not gonna care about anything. Wait for school to start. Focus on school because that should be my only focus..besides my friends of course. And the before i know if i'll be going to college and then i can leave and start over somewhere knew. I think im finally happy. And i have no one to thank but myself.

Its raining..ouch

2005-08-15T18:09:04Z

Basics
Name: Britney
Age: 15
Sex: Female
Location: My living room
Looks: same as always..
Height: 5'5
Weight: 117
Hair color: Dark brown with some red
Eye color: Blue
Best feature: My elbows are so amazing
Worst feature: my face needs help
Pant size: well nobody can be just one.. i would say between a 5 and 7
Shirt size: Medium
Shoe size : 8ish
Hair length: Medium i guess
Hair style: Its all over the place
Skin color: im quite pale
Nail length: i hate long nails..mine are quite short
Piercings: just ears
Tattoos: i have stars all over my legs that i drew with highlighters if that counts for anything
Eyebrow thickness: i dont think ive measured them before..idk they're...thin
Lip thickness: um..theyre normal size..i think
Braces: yes..sadly
Glasses: reading
Contacts: nope
Freckles: a few here and there
Clothes: what about them
Do you wear jeans?: i try not to
Shorts?: around the house
Skirts?: i have a couple..i usually dont
Dresses?: no i havent wore one in like 3 years..well i did try one on for the wedding but i dont wear them ever.
Capris?: i Have a green pair but i make sure i wear my knee high socks with them
Jean skirts?Nope
Plaid skirts? No but that'd be cool.
Long skirts?Yeah i have a long yellow one..
Short skirts?I have a mountian dew skirt..that i consider short..idk if they normal slut population would..but i only bought it cuz it had mountian dew on it..
Ruffled skirts?no..
Pink skirts? Hah..no
Tight skirts? no
Striped skirts? my orange one is kinda stripped..but ive only wore that like 3 times.
Polkadotted skirts?: No but i want one..
Long dresses?no
Short dresses? no
Tight dresses? no
Black dresses? for the wedding..
Pink dresses? NO
Low-cut dresses?no
Polkadotted dresses? No but thatd be cool
Plaid dresses? no
Exspensive dresses? nooooo
Flowery dresses? gah no
Colorful dresses? no
Belly shirts? ew no
Low-cut shirts? no
T-shirts? yes
Tanktops? only one
Halters? no
Sweaters? no
Turtlenecks? no
Flowery shirts? no
Black shirts? yes
White shirts? not usually
Shirts with writing? yeah
Baggy shirts? yeah
Baggy pants? yeah
Tight pants? no
Plaid pants? no
Pink pants? no
Leather pants? no
Striped pants? no
Fuzzy pants? no
Sweatpants? gym..
Green pants? yessss
Pants with writing? yeah i wrote all over my jeans
Leather jacket? nno
Fuzzy jacket? no
Jean shorts? no
Plaid shorts? no
Very short shorts? yeah
Tight shorts? no
Orange shorts? no
Tennis shoes? no
Flip flops? no
Leather boots? no
Ankle socks? yeah
Argyle socks? no..
Striped socks? yeah
Polkadotted socks? no :(
Knee high socks? YES
Fuzzy socks? Yes
Itchy socks? no
Plaid socks? no
Ruffled socks? no
Rainbow socks? no
Toe socks? yes
Big socks? no
Tight socks? no
Checkered socks? no
Socks with turtles on them? yes XD
Socks that say things? yes
High heels? no
Clogs? no
Slippers? no
Fuzzy slippers?no
Favorites
Color: Bright green and yellow
Country : Germany
Food : Raspberries <33
Drink : Any kind of Arizona tea..yummy
Pillow: The one i carry everywhere..lol
Male celeb : Tom Felton
Female celeb : Katie Holmes
Fruit: Raspberries
Veggie: Cucumbers
Number: 27
Letter : X
Name: Girl--Lucy, Boy-Jack
Scent : nail polish
Finger: the fouth one
Toe : third one on the left
Bodypart : My elbows
Sport: i hate sports
Animal: Hippos!
Video game : Vice city as always..but the silent hill thing is pretty cool
Computer game: Sims...durr
Board game: Dont have one
Website : I like checking my email lol
Store :Hottopic of course
TV channel : TBS or comedy central
TV show : Dawsons creek
Cartoon: South park/Family Guy
Cartoon character: Stan is so hott
Band: Lower Class Brats
Song: Who writes your rules
Type of music : Punk i guess
Hair color: any not normal hair color
Eye color : blue
Quote: I have too many..lol
Fish: big ones..idk
Dog: Sharpeis
Cat: Britney doesnt like cats..
Nut: Nuts are ewie
Icecream : Piece of cake..or chocolate peanut butter
Cake: Ice cream cake
Pie: pumpkin
Piercing: Lip
Bird: i dont really know all the different types of birds..
Candy : i love snickers
Gum: one to make bubbles with
Time: its all the same to me..
Day : all the same once again
Month: December duh
Holiday: Halloween
Neon color: Green!
Emotion: Happiness
Smiley face: The cool face
Type of underwear: boxers!
Type of socks Knee socks
Juice: apple
Type of milk: cancer!
Chocolate: i can only eat the milk chocolate lol
Lipstick color: black
Eyeshadow color : blue or green
Lipgloss flavor: dont wear it
Nail polish color: black and green
Shape: triangles make me hott
Parent: haha
Chip flavor: chips are ewie
Soup: vegetable
Salad dressing : italian
Perfume: i prefer cologne
Pattern:polka dots
House color: yellow
Flower: rose
School subject: englsih
Movie: Tim Burton movies
Bagel: plain
Pizza topping : cheese
Seasoning : idk
Do you consider yourself...
Amazing: Amazingly stupid
Athletic: nope
Abnormal : yeah
Behaved: nope
Bitchy: i can be at times
Butthead : haha sure
Crazy: oh yes
Corny: no
Cocky : no
Dazed : mmmhmm
Different: oh yes very
Dumb: Not totally..i have my moments
Excellent: no
Egghead : sure
Funny: i make people laugh..
Fluffy: oh yes im just a big fluff ball
Fun : not sure
Great: no..nobodys great
Grand : or grand
Goofy: sure
Hairy: ew no
Honest : i try to be
Helpful : when i want to be
Impressive: not really..
Interesting : yes
Indifferent: maybe
Jealous: im working on it
Jiggly: no
Jubilant :no
Kewl : kewl
Lazy : oh yes..
Lonely: i try not to look at it that way
Loved: not at the moment..but its all good
Moody: oh yes
Mellow : not sure
Mean: only to those specail people
Naughty: no not me
Nice : to some people
Nerdy: no
Optimistic: no
Obvious : idk
Okay : i guess
Perky: no
Pissed : at times
Pleased : sure why not
Quirky: um..
Refreshed : no im quite tired
Relaxed : sure
Rejected : no
Sad : no
Silly : yeah
Scared : no
Thoughtful : idk maybe
Touched : no
Thankful : i guess
Uncomfortable : not really
Wierd : oh yes
Worried : nope
Wacky : haha sure
Love and such (ewww)
Sexual orientation? straight
Have a girlfriend/boyfriend? Nope
If so, do you love them? -
Been kissed? yes
Have a crush? no
Kissed the same sex? no
Virgin? yes
Wish you had a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes and no
Afraid to ask someone out? yes
Been dumped? yes
Dumped someone? yes
Had someone afraid to ask you out? maybe..
Been on a date? not really
Madeout in the movies? yes..
Would you for $10,000...
Sit naked on your neighboors roof for 2 hours: no..lol
Jump out of a moving car : sure..well depends how fast
Sky dive : sure
Give your grandpa a full body massage: dont have one lol
Walk around the mall with no pants on: if i had underwear
Eat 3 whole pies : if i could..
Chop off your own finger : no
Star in a porn movie : no
Kill a tank full of fish : no save the fish
Go a month without human contact: i practically do that now
Throw away all of your clothes: if i got them back lol
Get rid of your favorite pet: i only have one lol
Get plastic surgery : no
Swear at your mother : haha id do that for free
Animals...
Do you have any pets? yes
If yes how many? 1
Ever had a pet frog?nope
Ferret? nope
Chicken? nope
Horse? nope
Rat? nope
Snake? nope
Gerbil? nope
Bird? yes..wasnt really mine thou
Do rats creep you out? yes
How about spiders? oh god yes
Snakes? not reallly
Bugs? yeah
Do you kiss your animals or other peoples? i dont kiss animals..at all
Do you talk to them? : yes lol
Yell at them? only mine
Lay with them? : no
Sing to them? : no lol
Dance with them? : i make thumper dance
What was your favorite pet you've ever had?: brandon was awesome
Least favorite? : the hampster was jewish
Does your pet have a collar? : i dont think they have collars for rabbits
What brand of food do you buy for them?: my mom takes care of the food
Have you considered painting your pets nails?: yes..last night actually
Doing there hair? : yeah i spiked thumpers
Putting makeup on them? : no
Do you take them for walks? : i used to walk thumper lol
What would you do if they died?: idk
Thoughts...on a scale of 1-10 how often do you think about the following...
Friends 8
Family 4
Animals 7
Sex 4
Food 2
Sleep 9
Dancing 7
Talking 7
Kissing Parties 1
Smoking 1
Drinking 1
Singing 5
Brad pitt 1
Pie 3
Girls 3
Boys 7
Cheese 9
Spongebob 4
Tv 6
Celebritys 7
Vodka 2
Dreams 6
Money 6
Gambling 1
Chinese food 2
Bathing 4
Angelina Jolie 1
Music 8
Britney Spears 3..only cuz she copies me..
Models 1
Commercials 2
Computers 6
Dying 7
Shopping 3
Burping 5
Licking 3
Love 4
Hair 5
George Bush 1
Babies 1
Tattoos 1
Simple Plan 1
Madonna 1
This or that
Red or blue Red
Purple or pink -
Green or yellow Green
Hot or cold cold
Cake or pie pie
Waffles or pancakes: waffles
Chocolate or vanilla :vanilla
Coffee or tea : tea
Asparagus or spinach: spinach
Pizza or burger : pizza
Apple or orange :apple
Banana or strawberry :banana
Soup or salad :salad
Starbursts or skittles:skittkles
Love or lust :love
Boys or girls :boys
Diamond or crystal : diamond
Rock or pop :rock
Punk or rap :punk
Computer or TV : computer
TV or music : music
Music or sex :music
Sex or food food
Food or sleep sleep
Sleep or sex sleep
Dance or sing dance
Blonde or brunette brunette
Blonde or red red
Shorts or pants pants
Spongebob or Patrick patrick
Movies or TV shows movies
Garlic or onion onion
Bath or shower bath
Short or long hair : dk
Facial hair or no facial hair: no
Foot or hand :hand
Kiss or hug : hug
Lick or touch : touch
Neckalce or bracelet : bracelets
Eyeshadow or eyeliner : eyeliner
Happy or sad : happy
Pepsi or coke : pepsi
Spiderman or Superman: spider
Batman or Robin : batman
Ear or nose : ear
Deaf or blind : deaf
Left or right: left
Stop or go : stop
Stripes or polkadots: polkadots
Dreams or nightmares : dreams
White or black : black
Newspaper or magazine: mag
TV or book: book
Tongue or nose piercing: tounge
Pale or tan : pale
Silver or gold :silver
Sprite or Mountain Dew: Mountian Dew
Jellybeans or lollipops : Jellbeans
Grandma or Grandpa : Grandmother
What's your stand on...
Underage drinking : doesnt bother me.
Smoking: cooler ways to die..lol
Teenage sex: not for me..
Teen pregnancy : sluts
Abortion : gah
Bush : gah
Kerry : idk
War: idk
Gay marriage: not really for it but what can you do..
Drugs : whatever
Piercings : hottness
Tattoos pretty
Labels : doesnt affect me..
Racism : idk
America : blah
Vegetarianism: smart people
Your dream lover
Hair color : Something dyed..maybe black with blue or red..
Eye color : blue
Height : like..5'7-5'9 i dont like them too much taller..just a little
Weight: as long as they're not fat lol
Do they drink? : if they want to..
Do they smoke? : no because they would kill me..lol
Piercings? : that would be a plus
Tattoos? : doesnt matter
Long or short hair? : kinda in the middle
Funny or serious? : gotta have both, and know when to be funny and when to be serious
Outgoing or shy? : in the middle
Sarcastic or sincere? both
Would they call you honey, sweetie, or baby? sweetie lol
Would they bring you flowers? of course..
Would they kiss on the first date? no
Would they play sports? no
Would they be older or younger than you? id prefer older
Glasses or no? : no
Preppy or punky? : punky?..punk
Six pack? (if a guy) yes that would be nice
Big or little butt? um little lol
Romantic or horndog? romantic
Boobs? (if a girl) -
Like to cuddle? yes
Like to dance? yes if they dance like an idiot like me.
Calls you alot? : of couse
Would they give you your space? yes when i asked for it.
Who's hawter? (random celebs)
Britney or Christina -
Paris or Nikki -
Brad Pitt or George Clooney brad i guess..the george guy is like..old
Johnny Depp or Orlando Bloom -Orlandoooooo , johnny belongs to angela
Billy Joe or Eminem - eminem
Angelina Jolie or Beyonce -
Ben Affleck or 50 cent ew
Lindsay Lohan or Hilary Duff -
Will Smith or Usher ew
Chad Michael Murray or Collin Farell : chad i guess..what a gay name
Ashton Kutcher or Benji Madden ew
Jessica or Ashlee Simpson -
Jennifer Aniston or Courtney Cox -
J lo or Pamela Anderson -
Random Questions
Do you bite your nails? sometimes
Can you touch your tongue to your nose? no
How long can you hold your breath? not long
Ever kissed your foot? no
Consider yourself a good dancer?haha no
Do you like shopping? not really
Are you usually happy? no
Favorite type of cheese? american
What color is your mouse? white
Do you like white chocolate? no
Do you have any sibling? half people
What is your favorite kind of melon? water
When was the last time you sneezed? yesterday i believe
Do you like to sneeze? yes its fun
Do you own a green hat? no but i want oneeee
Do you own green underwear? i wish
When do you go to sleep? when im tired
And wake up? after 930
Do you like spinach? i dont think ive really had it before
Have you ever drove a jeep? no
Have you ever threw popcorn? yes
Do you skate? not anymore
Do you take any drugs? no
Can you do the splits? no
Do you want to live in a hotel? no
Do you have a pool? no
Have a piano? no
Have a hot tub? no
How often do you go to the movies? not often
Do you watch American Idol? no
Do you like raisins? no
Do you smile often? i try to..
Are you tired? yes
Ever got a massage?no
Most money you ever spent on a pair shoes? 70 something..those vans are expensive
Do you have a squeaky voice? no lol
Would you consider yourself poor? not poor poor..but we have to watch the money we spend
Ever had a room in a basement? no
Do you like to party? no
Do people stare at you often? oh yes
Do you have alot of friends? i have like 5
Why do you want to be famous? no
How often do you go out to eat? once a week at the most
Do you hate anybody? no
Do you think redheads are sexy?no..sorry josh
Do you curse alot? yes
Do you watch Adult Swim on cartoon network? yes
Ever got a pedicure? no
Do you drink wine? no
Do you hate being sick? sometimes..lol
What are you wearing? blue pants..and a red no fear shirt
Do you wish you were someone else? no
Did you know I just suddenly started feeling sick? ok
Would you be mad at me if I puked on you now? you couldnt
What grade are you in? 11
Do you have a job? yes
Do you wear blush? no
Are you wearing pants? yes
Are your parents divorced? yes
Are you keeping a secret? no
Do you care about your health? yes
Do you get crap out of vending machines? no
Know anybody with a mohawk? yes
How many people are on your buddy list? 28
What time is it? 146
How many bathing suits do you own? 1
Do you get alot of pop-ups? no
Ever named your bodyparts? i named my elbows a few months ago..not sure what i called them thou
Do you have a pet fish? no
Ever named a fish? yes..i named on of the fish my mommy has at work butters..
Do you have an odd fetishes? i might
Ever played volleyball? yes
Do you like the color pink? hate it
Ever gone scuba diving? no
Do you like camping? not really
Can you dive? somewhatt
Ever been in a wheelchair? yes
Are you bald? no lol
Do you act wierd around babies? not that i know of
Ever been called a whore? all the time
Do you watch South Park? yes
Do you file your nails? no
Do you clip your toenails? sometimes..
How often do you clean your ears? idk
Ever painted your nails yellow? no but that would be aweeesome
Do you cry easily? no
Who do you make fun of the most? fat people..i know im mean
Who do you want to kiss? no one
What was the last thing you ate? sandwhich
Do you like being asked questions? yes
Was your hair ever blonde? yes..natural color
Do you wear chapstick? yes
Are you thirsty? yes actually
What do you dislike most about life? nothing at the moment..im quite okay right now
Any near death expierences? not that i know of..
First Real Boyfriend/Girlfriend? richie?
Do You Have A Cell Phone? yes
place you would like to visit? idk probably germany
Are you now or have you ever been a snitch? no
Do you want to get married? yes
Are you a metal head? no
Is cheerleading a sport? NO
Are you flexible? dont think so..lol
Are you going to college? yes
Do you suffer from depression disorder? i used to
Are you religious? somewhat
First, last, now
First Unrealistic Crush? Probably Josh Hartnett lol
First obsession? Billy
First Job? The one i have now
first concert? Some stupid one i went to with my mom probably
first fight? idk
First Kiss? Richie
First time you have been dumped? richie
first time you drank? long long time ago
first time you smoked? Cant allergic
Last time you hugged? yesterday
last time you kissed? march
last time you cried? thats personal
last time you cursed? yesterday
last song listened to? Play crack the sky..im in a brand new phase
last time you worked out? hah
last movie you rented? edward scissorhands
last time you apologized to someone? friday?
last time you yelled? not sure
whats your room look like? its small..got alot of junk i need to get rid of.
what are you thnking about? my room
are you listening to music? yes
what? Brand New
what school do you go to? bhbl
who are you iming? no one
are you eating? nohting
are you drinking? ice tea
are you scratching? no
are you breathing? well duh
are you talking? no
are you twitching? no
Music...rate these bands/singers 1-10
Blink 182 2
Ashlee Simpson 1
Evanessence 2
Avril Lavigne 2
Beyonce 1
Slipknot 2
Mudvayne 2
Simple plan 2..only cuz david is reaaally hott
Modest Mouse 1
Britney Spears 1..copy cat
No Doubt 1
Marilyn Manson 2
50 cent 1
Usher 1
Red hot chili peppers 1
The cure 8
Kittie 1
Black eyed peas 1
Bowling for soup 1
Kelly Clarkson 1
Nelly 1
Smashing Pumpkins 1..thats angelas area
The White Stripes 1
Vengaboys 1
Smash Mouth 1
Pink Floyd 1
Kiss 1
My Chemical Romance 1
Muse 1
Korn 1
Green Day 1
Sum 41 1
Jimmy eat world 1
Bob Marley 1
Bloodhound gang 1
Chevelle 1
Crossfade 1
Eminem 3
Flickerstick 1
Good charlotte 1
Hoobastank 1
Jewel 1
John Mayer1
Linkin park 2
Madonna 1
Ludacris 1
Maroon 5 1
Metallica 1
Nine Inch Nails 1
Nirvana 2
Outkast 1
Queen 1
Saliva 1
The Mars Volta 1
The Killers 5
Thursday 1
Velvot Revolver 1
Maria Mena 1
Incubus 1
Rate your.... 1-10
Eyes 3
Nose 5
Mouth 5
Ears 5
Skin 8
Chin 6
Hair 8
Shoulders 4
Boobs -
Belly 7
Arms 6
Hands 7
Legs 4
Butt -
Hips 5
Back 7
Feet 3
Fingers 6
Toes 4
Personality 7
Life 6
Overall self 6
Mooore random questions...
Do you like to wear hats? sometimes
Do you like to read? yes
Do you wear ties? no
Ever poked a bird with a stick? no
Like to push buttons? yes
Ever pushed a big red button? no
Are you cold? no
Are you hot? no
Do you still trick or treat? no
What's your AIM screen name? omgukilleddkenny
What time is it? 159
what color socks are you wearing? no socks
ever worn two different color socks? yes
do you like tic tacs? yes
what is your favorite kind of tic tac? orange
what color is your hair brush? green
do you wish you were skinnier? no
do you have a rubber duck? no
a rubber chicken? no
any other rubber birds? no
do you have a favorite shirt? yes
do you scratch your head alot? yes
what TV channel do you watch most? idk i hate tv
can you play baseball? no
do you like spicy food? yes
do you like grips on your pencils? no
do you have a clock on your wall? yes
have a calendar on your wall? yes
do you casually go to burger king? no ew
consider yourself a good singer? oh yes
ever sucked your own toes? ew no
have a favorite crayon color? greeen
have a favorite reaility show? no
do you like anime? no
Do you like pears? no
can you salsa dance? no
do you like peaches? no
how many posters on your wall? 20 ish area..some small
do you like old people? no
how often do you shower? i try not to that much like..shower wait a few days shower..cuz the more times i shower..the quicker the red will fade in my hair
how old is your mom? 41
do you like plums? no
do you like porn? no
can you break dance? no
what's under your bed? the floor
ever sucked a binky for fun? no
ever seen a tornado? no
ever been to Hawaii? no
can you surf? no
do you like dorritos? yes
is your hair curly? yes
do you like curly hair? yes and no
ever kissed a toad? no
do you chew with your mouth open? yes
do you like garlic? no
do you go to the library? sometimes
can you count how many cousin you have? i only know of 2
have you ever been pregnant? no
have any pet peeves? yes lots
do you love cartoons? no
can you burp? yes
really loud? sometimes
do you enjoy cleaning your ears? oh its tooons of fun
do you like rainbows? no
have you had the chicken pox? yes
have an famous friends? no..angela will be someday
do you have a best friend? angela
do you sleep with a stuffed animal? only my hippo
who do you usually talk to on the phone? angela
have you seen finding nemo? yes
do you like oatmeal? no
do you like to hold babies? no
do you like watermelon? i guess
do you like to wrap presents? no
have you been to driving school? no
can you rap? no
do you like lollipops? yes
do you want a hug? sure
do you like pepper? its alright
do you like long hair on guys? not too long
what was your third grade teachers name? sister ann..something
do you collect anything? socks
have you ever been in a car accident? no
any songs that make you cry? no
do you like rap? mp
do you play with barbies? no
if you could be doing one thing right now what would it be? sleeping
do you play football? no
do you like sunflower seeds? they're alright
do you own a pink hat? no
ever been to disney world? yes
Are you good at math? no
do you want kids? yes
would you rather adopt a kid? no
do you babysit? yes
do you like to hold hands? yes
do you want a new watch? no
do you dress sporty? oh yeah
do you like to smile? its okay
have you ever smoked? no
do you like milkshakes? yes making them is fun too
do double chins freak you out? yes
do you wear pigtails? somedays
are your eyelashes long? somewhat
do you like bangs? no
do you have any clothes with frogs on them? socks
do you wear white pants? no
are you bored? yes
do pop-ups bug you? mmhmm
do you read girly magazines? no
do you go fishing? no
who is the closest person to you who has died? grandfather i guess or my aunt
what bodypart are you touching now? my legs are crossed
how many people are you talking to now? no one
are you closer to your mom and dad? neither
do you have any scars? no
do you have a pet rabbit? yes
do you yell at the TV? no
do you pull your hair? not that i know of
do you like sprite? its okay
do you have an obsession? many
how long is your hair? shoulder length
would you ever work at a gas station?sure why not
do you like the flavor and scent green apple? its okay
do you have a diary? journal
do you have a happy bunny obsession? no
do you want to marry someone rich? doesnt matter
are you friendly? i can be
are you mean? i can be that too
do you like thin eyebrows? on who
do you like to throw things? yes
do you like flavored water? no
do you have any bruises right now? on my leg
ever been in a cat fight? no
do you like the smell of feet?ew no..i hate feet
ever lost a dog? my babysitter killed my dog
do you have a wig? no but i want one